maternity
Could I answer one email, show up and photograph you beautifully, and hand you digitals? Yes. So why do I have an entire process that takes weeks leading up to our session together? Why does it feel like I’m complicating something that could be so quick and easy?
Because quick and easy isn’t what you really want.
Read MoreIn a world where people just want the smallest, simplest piece of you, how do you show them that you need each other?
So much of owning a small business is meeting the people who will “get” what you do and want to be a part of it. If you’re doing it right, it’s not even a huge number of people, just enough that trust your vision and want it for themselves. But, when you have one minute to listen to their story and one minute to tell yours, how do you connect?
I’m so tired of the small talk, “I’m a life coach, oh, you’re a photographer? I need some new headshots.”
We know you do so much more than just coach people. Do you know that I do so much more than take a few photos of people?
How do we get there? How do we find meaning in these short conversations?
Read MoreThe world is beginning to open back up and I’m feeling…sad.
I know, that sounds crazy, but hear me out.
Let me start by saying that I know how privileged this statement is. People have been without income, not able to see family, sick, dying, working overtime, caring for the sick and dying, living with their abusers, missing their senior year or school, and living in their depression.
I have been able to work and still provide services to my clients (past and new) through this quarantine. I don’t take that lightly.
Read MoreThere is beauty in pain. There is light in darkness. There are so many people out there losing their lives, losing their jobs, unable to quarantine, forced to work through all of this because they need it to feed their family, those unable to feed their family, 3rd world countries without medical help, and so much hurt. I am so privileged right now and I refuse to take that for granted. I refuse to complain about the unknown because at least I get another tomorrow. I have and will continue to donate where I can. I will count every single second as a blessing. I will be stronger when this is all over because I was given a fighting chance.
Read MoreOne of my closest friends messaged me last week and she exclaimed, “You have to read this article and watch the video!”
No, I’m not a mother.
But, I will do everything in my power to build mothers up and make sure they feel like they have support and an army around them.
I watched the short video and was in complete awe. They found a word to explain what happens to a woman’s psychological development when she becomes a mother.
“When a baby is born, so is a mother -- but the natural (and sometimes unsteady) process of transition to motherhood is often silenced by shame or misdiagnosed as postpartum depression. In this quick, informative talk, reproductive psychiatrist Alexandra Sacks breaks down the emotional tug-of-war of becoming a new mother -- and shares a term that could help describe it: matrescence.” - Ted Talks via Youtube.
Please watch the incredibly informative video (it’s only 6 minutes).
Some quotes from the article by Alexandra Sacks:
“Let’s delve deeper into “matrescence,” the transition into motherhood described in our New York Times article, “Birth of a Mother”. Like adolescence, it is a transitionary period. Being pregnant is like going through puberty all over again: your hormones go nuts, your hair and skin don’t behave the way you’d like, and you develop a new relationship with a body that seems to have a mind of its own.
The difference? Everyone understands that adolescence is an awkward phase. But during matrescence, people expect you to be happy while you’re losing control over the way you look and feel.”
Powerful stuff, right?!
She goes on to explain:
A feeling that comes up in the roles and relationships you’re most invested in, because they’re always a juggling act between giving and taking. Most of the time, the experience of motherhood is not good or bad, it’s both good and bad.
Your imagination about pregnancy and motherhood is informed by observations of your own mother, female relatives, friends, and women in your community and culture. Fantasies may be powerful enough that reality disappoints if it doesn’t align with your vision.
There’s also the ideal mother in your mind. Many women think that “good enough” (a phrase coined by the pediatrician and psychoanalyst Donald Winnicott) is not acceptable, because it sounds like settling. But striving for perfection sets you up to feel shame and guilt.”
This is the one that really got me:
All mothering is intergenerational: for better and for worse, your maternal identity is founded in your mother’s style, and hers in her mother’s. Whether you parent your child as your mother parented you, or adopt a different mothering style, becoming a mother gives you a beautiful (and sometimes painful) opportunity for a do-over. In a way, you get to re-experience your own childhood in the act of parenting, repeating what was good, while trying to improve upon what you think you can do better.”
She then ends the article saying:
Your friends and family — even your spouse or partner — will be competing for your attention with your baby. Motherhood will also compete with the time, energy and resources you’re used to investing into your own eating, exercise, recreation, organization, sexuality, finances, and work. You’ll have to navigate a shift in your role and relationship to all of these people and places, and yourself.”
It’s incredible to read or watch anything that makes you feel a little less alone in this world. That it’s okay to not love every part of being a mother, even big parts of it. We sacrifice so much of ourselves to bring children into this world. We can’t give 100% to every aspect of our life and a lot of times we sacrifice things that used to mean a lot to us in order to start a family.
I hope that everyone looks into this, not just mothers or women. If we can better understand what new moms are going through then we can learn to be more compassionate and supportive. We can learn to not shame, but instead lift mothers up.
To all of the incredible moms I’ve photographed…I see you. You’re AMAZING. You are never alone.
